I’ve always depended on the kindness of strangers.

A Streetcar Named Desire

After spending six months dreading the moment I’d have to stand in front of people and read, I approached my biggest fear with a clear picture of every possible thing that could go wrong. Vomiting, fainting, and crying, I’ll have to admit, were at the top of my list of expectations for the night. One thing that was not, however, was Tennessee Williams.

Yet after having managed to make it through reading and speaking alongside authors whose life and work I’ve long admired without falling out of my chair—or accidentally lighting a cigarette, because I was so nervous I forgot where I was—I realized that the one thing I hadn’t imagined happening was the only thing that happened. The kindness of the people around me had overshadowed everything I didn’t want to do, or that I was afraid would happen.

Still, Lidia Yuknavitch is not a stranger. Eliot Treichel is not a stranger. My friends in Portland are not strangers. My wife, Kate, is not a stranger. The wonderful people at Ooligan Press are not strangers. And the people I’d never met before that night at Powell’s, or that I didn’t meet, but were there, are not strangers, either. They’re all actually a lot like me. And every one of them helped me to realize that we were all there experiencing something together.

So, thank you. Even if I still don’t like talking in front of people, I now know that it can be done.

But, more importantly, working with Ooligan Press has shown me that there are some really great publishers out there; publishers that care more about the work they’re putting out than they do about money. The time and care that every person at Ooligan Press puts into every manuscript forced me to realize a lot of things. Mainly that those on both ends of the publishing process are a lot alike in that, as much as they care about anything, they care about books.

Up Nights project team
The Up Nights team: Brittany Torgerson, Olivia Croom, Kylie Byrd, and Daniel Kine

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